I had an interesting epiphany recently. I used to wonder why I was so exhausted on Sunday afternoons when I was a pastor. I mean I am an extrovert so being around people all morning energized me.

I don't think it was the early morning thing. Although I did enjoy summers when church didn't start until 9:45. What I think it was for me was a “vulnerability hangover.”

 Dr. Brené Brown’s big idea is that vulnerability is good for you, or as she puts it, “vulnerability is our most accurate measure of courage.” We live in a culture where making yourself vulnerable – exposing your fears and uncertainties, taking emotional risks – is considered a form of weakness. Something most of us want to run away from. But Brown’s research reveals hugely positive outcomes that emerge from stepping into the arena of vulnerability. It is precisely when we expose ourselves – perhaps in a relationship or at work – that “we have experiences that bring purpose and meaning to our lives.”

What I have come to realize is, creating something, like a sermon for example, and then sharing openly, with no guarantee that it will be accepted, appreciated, etc., is an act of vulnerability. Therefore it is an act of courage. It is sharing your heart and bearing your soul and risking hurt, rejection or failure.

I had that feeling after making a presentation of something we have been working on for a long time.  Something that is new and experimental and unknown, but also exciting and hope-filled. Afterward the presentation, I felt that same “vulnerability hangover.”

But as I reflect on all of this, I realized that I would not change any of this. No matter how much I hate this feeling. I am both grateful to be able to create and share--especially for the purpose of helping others know the love of Jesus Christ. I am also thankful for those wonderful people who are “in the arena” with me!

I am so honored to know so many amazing men and women who share their hearts through preaching each Sunday.  Exposing their very essence of the who they are to vulnerability. Keep on daring greatly my friends! Don't feel bad if you need a nap.